i must say if there is one thing and i mean one thing i really hate...its repeating myself over and over again. i passionatly dislike it more than anyone could know.
well one again directions were not followed as they were given. know this and know it well i do believe this may be my next to last blog posting. the next time that im alone with her undwer the proper conditions and location. she will once and for all totally learn that i mean what i say. or it will be over for us.
i sure hope this mic is on where im being heard. i will not put myself through this any longer.
Friday, June 26, 2009
Thursday, June 25, 2009
didnt take lone...again
yes i know you may be thinking that i couldnt wait for you to mess up again. no i had the deepest hope knowing that you would be extra careful in not messing up any time soon. well it didnt take her long. see given a mission or a task to complete one must understand its being done for a reason. she was instructed to let me know when she left for her appt...when she arrived....and when she returned home. well for that task she was 0 out of 3. also she was told to refer to her Sir at all times as a matter of respect. well for that i will give her a 60% completion rate. and even more so if she is my "bitch" and my "slut" as well as my submissive. i told her to display that to me in a photographic way. guess what she did. i tell you ________ that what i received back. now i have warned her time after time after time. i have warned so much that im about tired of it. the next time i see her im sure i will have to gag her to lesson the noice she will make from being in pain. i think now a stern reminder is what needed. the worst kind of reminder that would stay with her even after she is gone.
another thing is we have talked about being with another couple or another female and now the situation is about to really happen. you know what she had the nerve to say? pick one or the other im not doing both. well for a submissive who claims to be more freakier than me and has expressed desires for both situations why should i choose.
another thing is we have talked about being with another couple or another female and now the situation is about to really happen. you know what she had the nerve to say? pick one or the other im not doing both. well for a submissive who claims to be more freakier than me and has expressed desires for both situations why should i choose.
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
short update
i haven't written anything here in a very long time. so many life changes have happen that a personal blog gets put off until another day.
do i enjoy being with the sub i have been with for about the last nine months. i would say the answer is yes. its has been a process at times and at my fault i allowed myself to not stay true to form as a Dominate all the time. when she sees that I'm not in that role (as a Dom) she tends to want to push my buttons a little more. is she still a overall good sub...yes. does she still have a way to go.....yes.
recently we were together and i did something to her that i have never did before. before i state what i did i want you to know that for me in this lifestyle. I'm not always "out for myself". there are things i do solely knowing it would bring pleasure to her. well what i did was "tossed her salad" it wasn't a long in depth session but she got the point and the pleasure from it. she reacted like i thought she would. she had the look on her face like wow i wouldn't mind this more often. its like when i first sucked her toes. she never expected that to happen. then one day when i held her legs high up and open and while being inside her......i started sucking on her big toe. after about a minute i thought she was about to explode with an orgasm. she really enjoyed unexpected things of that nature.
but i will add as a downfall on that same day. she refuse to open herself up for me to do her in her a**hole. mind you I'm not a really big fan of it but it does add to a lever of control. she has stated to me so many times in the past how much she loves it. so after the salad tossing i proceeded to enter her in that same spot. she bucked and move side to side moving me to avoid me from entering her. hm mm i thought to myself why now is it that she acting this way. she said it hurts. but how could it hurt i didn't even get the head of it in. the more i tried the more she moved away. now i was getting a bit pissed.
then as a flashback i reminded myself of how she went through some things that were forced on her in her past and it was a negative experience. so i thought maybe what i was doing was giving her a flashback. so i stopped but wait another thought accrued to me.
you see on my way to her house i told her that i was planning to be inside her a**. so she knew that would have been my intentions. she never mention then if she didn't want to do it. so now i wonder. was somebody else recently in it and she is a bit sore there from that? hmm i wonder... well i may never know the answer to that question. another thought just happen. she had made arrangement prior to have driving lessons. and that days lesson was to begin at 1:00. i informed her that i should be there close to noon and that she should not worry about the appt i would be gone in time for her to go. but later while relaxing after she rode on top of me i was informed that "he called and cancelled the appt until 4:00 pm. now that possible but within the 15 Min's she told me what time the appt was and my arrival. she didn't mention it. did i mess up her plans for her secret lover to come by and see her. remind you that during the drive she asked me maybe i couldn't come see her and that maybe i should turn around and go back home. hm mm again.
so what you think??????
do i enjoy being with the sub i have been with for about the last nine months. i would say the answer is yes. its has been a process at times and at my fault i allowed myself to not stay true to form as a Dominate all the time. when she sees that I'm not in that role (as a Dom) she tends to want to push my buttons a little more. is she still a overall good sub...yes. does she still have a way to go.....yes.
recently we were together and i did something to her that i have never did before. before i state what i did i want you to know that for me in this lifestyle. I'm not always "out for myself". there are things i do solely knowing it would bring pleasure to her. well what i did was "tossed her salad" it wasn't a long in depth session but she got the point and the pleasure from it. she reacted like i thought she would. she had the look on her face like wow i wouldn't mind this more often. its like when i first sucked her toes. she never expected that to happen. then one day when i held her legs high up and open and while being inside her......i started sucking on her big toe. after about a minute i thought she was about to explode with an orgasm. she really enjoyed unexpected things of that nature.
but i will add as a downfall on that same day. she refuse to open herself up for me to do her in her a**hole. mind you I'm not a really big fan of it but it does add to a lever of control. she has stated to me so many times in the past how much she loves it. so after the salad tossing i proceeded to enter her in that same spot. she bucked and move side to side moving me to avoid me from entering her. hm mm i thought to myself why now is it that she acting this way. she said it hurts. but how could it hurt i didn't even get the head of it in. the more i tried the more she moved away. now i was getting a bit pissed.
then as a flashback i reminded myself of how she went through some things that were forced on her in her past and it was a negative experience. so i thought maybe what i was doing was giving her a flashback. so i stopped but wait another thought accrued to me.
you see on my way to her house i told her that i was planning to be inside her a**. so she knew that would have been my intentions. she never mention then if she didn't want to do it. so now i wonder. was somebody else recently in it and she is a bit sore there from that? hmm i wonder... well i may never know the answer to that question. another thought just happen. she had made arrangement prior to have driving lessons. and that days lesson was to begin at 1:00. i informed her that i should be there close to noon and that she should not worry about the appt i would be gone in time for her to go. but later while relaxing after she rode on top of me i was informed that "he called and cancelled the appt until 4:00 pm. now that possible but within the 15 Min's she told me what time the appt was and my arrival. she didn't mention it. did i mess up her plans for her secret lover to come by and see her. remind you that during the drive she asked me maybe i couldn't come see her and that maybe i should turn around and go back home. hm mm again.
so what you think??????
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
well scottie never beamed me back up so im stuck here for the moment. today i was thinking about gift giving. how we spend money or perform deeds for those we care about in life. some gifts last for a short period of time ie: flowers, food. other gifts last for a long time ie: jewelry, cars, clothing.
when you give a gift to another most of the time there is an intenton behind it. it could be done for marriage or deeper friendship or possibly to gain the heart of another.
in the BDSM lifestyle my thought is that one of the greatest gift a submissive (sub) can give her Dominant (Dom) is herself. giving of herself fully without question or fears. for as a submissive she allowed oneself to trust in another knowing that Dominant has her best intrest at heart.
as for a Dominant the gift he gives his sub in guidance, acceptance, his inner strength to name a few things.
for a sub not to submit to the will of her Dom she is not really submissive. not to say that she has no voice in the matter. but the final decision always and should be held by the Dom. if you want to disagree with things he has determine to be a course of action. do so with thought and with the understanding that he will listen and then makes his decision.
and for a Dom he needs to have his sub be aware of what she had consider to be a limit and show her that with time and effort that limit can be restablished on another level. provide and give direction to the sub having her realize the beauty she has within knowing she has pleased her Dom.
so as just explain these could be gifts also. but one of the biggest gift a Dom can give his sub is a "collar". a collar being a choker, anklet, bracelet or a broach as an example. she accepts and wear this as her comitment to him. and she has the foresight to know that its not lightly given to any sub. but also has the knowledge to know that it can easily be taken away. so a sub will maintain her submission towards him and follow his guidance. for she does not enter into this agreement and takes his collar only to change direction once the collar has been given.
when you give a gift to another most of the time there is an intenton behind it. it could be done for marriage or deeper friendship or possibly to gain the heart of another.
in the BDSM lifestyle my thought is that one of the greatest gift a submissive (sub) can give her Dominant (Dom) is herself. giving of herself fully without question or fears. for as a submissive she allowed oneself to trust in another knowing that Dominant has her best intrest at heart.
as for a Dominant the gift he gives his sub in guidance, acceptance, his inner strength to name a few things.
for a sub not to submit to the will of her Dom she is not really submissive. not to say that she has no voice in the matter. but the final decision always and should be held by the Dom. if you want to disagree with things he has determine to be a course of action. do so with thought and with the understanding that he will listen and then makes his decision.
and for a Dom he needs to have his sub be aware of what she had consider to be a limit and show her that with time and effort that limit can be restablished on another level. provide and give direction to the sub having her realize the beauty she has within knowing she has pleased her Dom.
so as just explain these could be gifts also. but one of the biggest gift a Dom can give his sub is a "collar". a collar being a choker, anklet, bracelet or a broach as an example. she accepts and wear this as her comitment to him. and she has the foresight to know that its not lightly given to any sub. but also has the knowledge to know that it can easily be taken away. so a sub will maintain her submission towards him and follow his guidance. for she does not enter into this agreement and takes his collar only to change direction once the collar has been given.
Saturday, November 15, 2008
close encounter of the 3rd kind
have you ever been in a situation where you think you are having an out of body experience. a situation where they say you "act like a different person". i feel like i been going thru that over the last 24 hours.
scottie beam me up.........
scottie beam me up.........
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
what is it with us men that want to either 1. be with two women at the same time or 2. see two women in action with each other. i mean if you ask the average women she will probably tell you this situation has been presented to her in the past.
as for myself i have seen this happen with two women in the past. there was something very mysterious and exciting about what was happening before my eyes. seeing two women making love to one another seem so taboo but also erotic. unlike probably what most men would do she took her time at a very slow but steady pace. searching and probing all areas of the other woman body. no words being spoken just the sounds of gentle moans could be heard. as i watch it became more and more intense for me "what a turn on" and thoughts of "wow that how i should be doing it" for what seem like hours they were having their "fun" with each other. it had started out as me just being an observer. but after what seem like a lifetime of viewing pleasure i just in from behind on one of them and entered her. she motion back with her hips and continue to give pleasure to the other woman. what a thrill when i exploded.
so for me it may be the taboo of it all that intrest me and also its the erotic part that thrills me.
as for myself i have seen this happen with two women in the past. there was something very mysterious and exciting about what was happening before my eyes. seeing two women making love to one another seem so taboo but also erotic. unlike probably what most men would do she took her time at a very slow but steady pace. searching and probing all areas of the other woman body. no words being spoken just the sounds of gentle moans could be heard. as i watch it became more and more intense for me "what a turn on" and thoughts of "wow that how i should be doing it" for what seem like hours they were having their "fun" with each other. it had started out as me just being an observer. but after what seem like a lifetime of viewing pleasure i just in from behind on one of them and entered her. she motion back with her hips and continue to give pleasure to the other woman. what a thrill when i exploded.
so for me it may be the taboo of it all that intrest me and also its the erotic part that thrills me.
Monday, November 10, 2008
my weekend
its seems to have been a long weekend for me. so many things to do and so little time to complete them in. i felt like there needed to be three of me to complete all the tasks i wanted to complete. well i didnt get the chance to spend time with my "sub" as i would have wanted to do. i also realized by not seeing her more frustration inside me was building up that i would normally release on her. now dont get me wrong its not a whipping post i use her for. its a way of me finding my "zen".
speaking of releasing frustration from the viewpoint of a Dominant towards a submissive is usually some form of punishment. now for me that a tricky situation. you see i do enjoy various forms of "punishment" on her. but what makes it so tricky is that the sub enjoys it more. i find that to be arousing but also interesting. with my last sub when i punished her by means of spanking by the second time she was punish that way she truely knew without a doubt how submissive she should be to my commands. now with my current sub she looks forward to a good spanking. with her so far i have used my hand, belt, paddle, rubber, and a wooden stick. with most of these items she was in pain. i could tell by her reaction that she was getting the point. but she at the same time started to enjoy it. she thinks i have run out of "tricks" to use as a form of punishment on her but sadly she is wrong. i have a few more things up my sleeve. you see the key is to not show any facial marks and not any type of pain/discomfort that would require a hospital visit. but there are ways still to get the job done. a good Dom would show some respect for her vanilla life. so i dont want her to be black and blue from marks for weeks at a time. i promise you the next time we are together she will experience a new form of pain.
speaking of releasing frustration from the viewpoint of a Dominant towards a submissive is usually some form of punishment. now for me that a tricky situation. you see i do enjoy various forms of "punishment" on her. but what makes it so tricky is that the sub enjoys it more. i find that to be arousing but also interesting. with my last sub when i punished her by means of spanking by the second time she was punish that way she truely knew without a doubt how submissive she should be to my commands. now with my current sub she looks forward to a good spanking. with her so far i have used my hand, belt, paddle, rubber, and a wooden stick. with most of these items she was in pain. i could tell by her reaction that she was getting the point. but she at the same time started to enjoy it. she thinks i have run out of "tricks" to use as a form of punishment on her but sadly she is wrong. i have a few more things up my sleeve. you see the key is to not show any facial marks and not any type of pain/discomfort that would require a hospital visit. but there are ways still to get the job done. a good Dom would show some respect for her vanilla life. so i dont want her to be black and blue from marks for weeks at a time. i promise you the next time we are together she will experience a new form of pain.
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