is this mic on???

i must say if there is one thing and i mean one thing i really hate...its repeating myself over and over again. i passionatly dislike it more than anyone could know.
well one again directions were not followed as they were given. know this and know it well i do believe this may be my next to last blog posting. the next time that im alone with her undwer the proper conditions and location. she will once and for all totally learn that i mean what i say. or it will be over for us.
i sure hope this mic is on where im being heard. i will not put myself through this any longer.

didnt take lone...again

yes i know you may be thinking that i couldnt wait for you to mess up again. no i had the deepest hope knowing that you would be extra careful in not messing up any time soon. well it didnt take her long. see given a mission or a task to complete one must understand its being done for a reason. she was instructed to let me know when she left for her appt...when she arrived....and when she returned home. well for that task she was 0 out of 3. also she was told to refer to her Sir at all times as a matter of respect. well for that i will give her a 60% completion rate. and even more so if she is my "bitch" and my "slut" as well as my submissive. i told her to display that to me in a photographic way. guess what she did. i tell you ________ that what i received back. now i have warned her time after time after time. i have warned so much that im about tired of it. the next time i see her im sure i will have to gag her to lesson the noice she will make from being in pain. i think now a stern reminder is what needed. the worst kind of reminder that would stay with her even after she is gone.
another thing is we have talked about being with another couple or another female and now the situation is about to really happen. you know what she had the nerve to say? pick one or the other im not doing both. well for a submissive who claims to be more freakier than me and has expressed desires for both situations why should i choose.

short update

i haven't written anything here in a very long time. so many life changes have happen that a personal blog gets put off until another day.
do i enjoy being with the sub i have been with for about the last nine months. i would say the answer is yes. its has been a process at times and at my fault i allowed myself to not stay true to form as a Dominate all the time. when she sees that I'm not in that role (as a Dom) she tends to want to push my buttons a little more. is she still a overall good sub...yes. does she still have a way to go.....yes.
recently we were together and i did something to her that i have never did before. before i state what i did i want you to know that for me in this lifestyle. I'm not always "out for myself". there are things i do solely knowing it would bring pleasure to her. well what i did was "tossed her salad" it wasn't a long in depth session but she got the point and the pleasure from it. she reacted like i thought she would. she had the look on her face like wow i wouldn't mind this more often. its like when i first sucked her toes. she never expected that to happen. then one day when i held her legs high up and open and while being inside her......i started sucking on her big toe. after about a minute i thought she was about to explode with an orgasm. she really enjoyed unexpected things of that nature.
but i will add as a downfall on that same day. she refuse to open herself up for me to do her in her a**hole. mind you I'm not a really big fan of it but it does add to a lever of control. she has stated to me so many times in the past how much she loves it. so after the salad tossing i proceeded to enter her in that same spot. she bucked and move side to side moving me to avoid me from entering her. hm mm i thought to myself why now is it that she acting this way. she said it hurts. but how could it hurt i didn't even get the head of it in. the more i tried the more she moved away. now i was getting a bit pissed.
then as a flashback i reminded myself of how she went through some things that were forced on her in her past and it was a negative experience. so i thought maybe what i was doing was giving her a flashback. so i stopped but wait another thought accrued to me.
you see on my way to her house i told her that i was planning to be inside her a**. so she knew that would have been my intentions. she never mention then if she didn't want to do it. so now i wonder. was somebody else recently in it and she is a bit sore there from that? hmm i wonder... well i may never know the answer to that question. another thought just happen. she had made arrangement prior to have driving lessons. and that days lesson was to begin at 1:00. i informed her that i should be there close to noon and that she should not worry about the appt i would be gone in time for her to go. but later while relaxing after she rode on top of me i was informed that "he called and cancelled the appt until 4:00 pm. now that possible but within the 15 Min's she told me what time the appt was and my arrival. she didn't mention it. did i mess up her plans for her secret lover to come by and see her. remind you that during the drive she asked me maybe i couldn't come see her and that maybe i should turn around and go back home. hm mm again.
so what you think??????