hmmm

why is it with this sub i seem to be acting so different from in the past. there are things about her that i will not do as i have with other subs in the past. she is able to distract me when we are together and my thoughts and plans seem to be forgotton.

she is also at the same time a little "bratty" mostly this happens when we are not face to face with one another. this upsets me most of the time. its not like i dont give her attention. in my mind i do give her a lot of attention more than what most other Doms would do. but still there is a part of her that i belives enjoys acting that way. i have not yet taken any extreme measures to punish her for these acts. but i do know i need to get her more under control really soon. there are a few things that i have in mind to really have her learn what punishment can mean in a bad way. i have not implemented any of them yet due to a few things she has told me about her past. but now i do realize that they do need to be used for her to fully realize how "what i say i mean for her to do".

now dont get me wrong when we are together she gives 110% of herself to ensure that she is fully submissive and would do what ever it may take to please me. and there are times when i will do things to her to push her limits higher and higher. i could remeber at first that if her pussy was played with to much she said it would coause her discomfort. now its to the point where i can play with it for hours without any discomfort. im pleased to see her progress to that level. i remeber the first time i spanked her. i could tell she was in a little pain at first. but now i had to increase the lever of pain using various items and she looks forward to the next spanking encounter. ( i have created a monster......lol)

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